What is my purpose?
I wouldn’t say that anyone on this earth
has one single purpose. Our purpose on this earth is constantly changing and
evolving as we grow and move throughout our lives. Trying to define someone or
box them up into one single purpose is impossible, but I guess I can give it my
best shot.
As a student I am planning for my future
event though it is very vague what that will be like I am doing my best to
prepare for whatever may come. Right now I am trying to survive this year as
best I can despite the fact that I have absolutely no motivation. I have never
felt so tired of school. Now that I can see the finish line I am most eager to
just hustle through these next few months.
As much as I want this year to be over I am nervous about what is going
to happen next year, I am the most indecisive person you will ever meet so
trying to pick a school is so unbelievably hard. I make a new decision once a
week and I know I will regret my decision within a month of making it. The fact
that it is going to decide the next four years of my life it is a lot of
pressure. I really wish I had the option to take some time of and travel, see
the world, and truly figure out what my purpose is or something I can get truly
passionate about and devote my life to. This would be so much easier without
all the stress of being a student, getting ahead, or making money. But since
money always seems to be the goal I don’t have the luxury to take time off.
The purpose of life is a life of purpose-
Dalai Lama
As an over all purpose I hope to someday
feel so truly passionate about a cause or a stance that I can throw myself
into, and do my part to make a difference. One of the things on my bucket list
is to be involved in something that will make it into the history books. I was
inspired to put this on my bucket list after watching a documentary on Eddie
Addams. Eddie was a combat photographer in the Korean War; he took some of the
most influential, earth shattering pictures of all time. I find it so
interesting that he lived the life of a soldier and got into some of the most
dangerous territory to take these pictures that changed life back in the
states. I don’t necessarily plan on photography but I love the concept of
capturing a picture or creating a piece of art that brings people out of their
comfort zone and shows them something they had never seen or thought about before.
If I could shake society even in some small way I would feel like my life was a
success. I feel like society as a whole needs a wakeup calls every once in a
while.
“Art should comfort the disturbed and
disturb the comfortable.” –Cezar A. Cruz
This quote doesn’t necessarily just apply
to art, people should be pushing boundaries in all facets of life. I truly hope
passion and purpose will overlap in my world. I have never been a very left
brained person, I am scattered and generally messy, so naturally art is an
attractive activity for someone like me. Luckily it is something I can get
passionate about. I am not necessarily a great artist by most standards but I
justify my art as art due to the fact that when I do it it’s for me. I don’t go
out of my way to make something that everyone likes I make art that means
something to me and if it means something to someone else that is just dandy. I
feel like throughout my life I will take my time away from doing any kind of art
but I will always end up going back due to the fact that it is a passion of
mine. I like to think I won’t commit myself to one single medium; I just love
creating and exploring new ways to do it. I’m not sure if this actually defined
my “purpose” but I’m sure you learned a lot about me regardless. I didn’t
realize I had such big plans. I’m sure will try my hardest to achieve them but
I’m sure reality will hit during college.