What is my purpose?

What is my purpose?

I wouldn’t say that anyone on this earth has one single purpose. Our purpose on this earth is constantly changing and evolving as we grow and move throughout our lives. Trying to define someone or box them up into one single purpose is impossible, but I guess I can give it my best shot.

As a student I am planning for my future event though it is very vague what that will be like I am doing my best to prepare for whatever may come. Right now I am trying to survive this year as best I can despite the fact that I have absolutely no motivation. I have never felt so tired of school. Now that I can see the finish line I am most eager to just hustle through these next few months.  As much as I want this year to be over I am nervous about what is going to happen next year, I am the most indecisive person you will ever meet so trying to pick a school is so unbelievably hard. I make a new decision once a week and I know I will regret my decision within a month of making it. The fact that it is going to decide the next four years of my life it is a lot of pressure. I really wish I had the option to take some time of and travel, see the world, and truly figure out what my purpose is or something I can get truly passionate about and devote my life to. This would be so much easier without all the stress of being a student, getting ahead, or making money. But since money always seems to be the goal I don’t have the luxury to take time off.

The purpose of life is a life of purpose- Dalai Lama

As an over all purpose I hope to someday feel so truly passionate about a cause or a stance that I can throw myself into, and do my part to make a difference. One of the things on my bucket list is to be involved in something that will make it into the history books. I was inspired to put this on my bucket list after watching a documentary on Eddie Addams. Eddie was a combat photographer in the Korean War; he took some of the most influential, earth shattering pictures of all time. I find it so interesting that he lived the life of a soldier and got into some of the most dangerous territory to take these pictures that changed life back in the states. I don’t necessarily plan on photography but I love the concept of capturing a picture or creating a piece of art that brings people out of their comfort zone and shows them something they had never seen or thought about before. If I could shake society even in some small way I would feel like my life was a success. I feel like society as a whole needs a wakeup calls every once in a while.

“Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable.” –Cezar A. Cruz

This quote doesn’t necessarily just apply to art, people should be pushing boundaries in all facets of life. I truly hope passion and purpose will overlap in my world. I have never been a very left brained person, I am scattered and generally messy, so naturally art is an attractive activity for someone like me. Luckily it is something I can get passionate about. I am not necessarily a great artist by most standards but I justify my art as art due to the fact that when I do it it’s for me. I don’t go out of my way to make something that everyone likes I make art that means something to me and if it means something to someone else that is just dandy. I feel like throughout my life I will take my time away from doing any kind of art but I will always end up going back due to the fact that it is a passion of mine. I like to think I won’t commit myself to one single medium; I just love creating and exploring new ways to do it. I’m not sure if this actually defined my “purpose” but I’m sure you learned a lot about me regardless. I didn’t realize I had such big plans. I’m sure will try my hardest to achieve them but I’m sure reality will hit during college.

Where am I?

Where am I?

There are so many ways to answer a question like this. Where am I on this planet, in the state, in the school, or in life.

As I am writing this I am in Aurora, where I spend most of my time. Our community is full of all types of people, everyone’s personality, faults, and accomplishments are amplified in such a small community because everyone knows everyone’s business, this can be a good or a bad thing.  When you Have done something good you have more benefits and you will get more praise and attention which will cause you to want to do good more often. Also out small community is full of positive peer pressure since everyone knows your business everyone will know about all your mistakes and your past. This causes people to want to avoid doing things that would tarnish their reputations. One of the downfalls of living in such a small community is the fact that small problems seem to be a huge deal.  As much as I dislike that about our rural community I think that it was a good place to grow up and gain values that you will carry through your life that you just wouldn’t get in a big town or city. I plan to raise my children in a small community because of the awesome upbringing I got from aurora.

The reasons why I chose these pictures as a representation of my community I feel are kind of obvious. When I think about Aurora I think about our beautiful but crumbling brick roads that bring out the worst in my car. Even though they can be are a nuisance at times and they might not even be that old but I think they definitely add to the town. Obviously I had to add the courthouse to what represents the community. Besides being a beautiful building at the center of our town all of the legal proceedings that protect our community happen in this building it definitely makes it blog worthy.

As far as where I am in my life I feel like I am just about to start it,

right now I haven’t decided where I want to go to college and spend the next four years of my life. I am considering going out of state where I can get a sense of life outside of Nebraska. Where I go to college next year can change the course of my life. My ideal life plan would be to travel after I graduate college and maybe even go abroad during college. I want to see some of the world before I settle down with a family or such things. I think seeing how the rest of the world lives helps to create a well-rounded person. 

These are the pictures that I chose for my home,

the first one is my dog nugget. How can you not fall in love with that face? There are so many words to describe him ornery, annoying, cute and cuddly I could go on all day but he is just all around loveable. He is my baby and he knows it, he gets away with everything and he knows it but the truth is my home would not be the same without him.

The second picture I chose was my little corner in the back yard.  In the summer it is one of my favorite places to be usually you can catch me siting back on our swing with a good book and some tea. Going back there now that it is so cold is kind of sad, it makes me remember how much I miss summer and how much I am dreading the snow.

 

These are the pictures that I chose for my home,

the first one is my dog nugget. How can you not fall in love with that face? There are so many words to describe him ornery, annoying, cute and cuddly I could go on all day but he is just all around loveable. He is my baby and he knows it, he gets away with everything and he knows it but the truth is my home would not be the same without him.

The second picture I chose was my little corner in the back yard.  In the summer it is one of my favorite places to be usually you can catch me siting back on our swing with a good book and some tea. Going back there now that it is so cold is kind of sad, it makes me remember how much I miss summer and how much I am dreading the snow.